That effin’ finale left me in such an emotional state that I could only draw angsty turtles, and especially angsty Donnie. Why? I’m so glad you asked.
Being the Donatello fantard that I am, I tend to notice him and the things he does more. So Leo being beaten up to a pulp had me covering my mouth in horror. But then we cut to Donnie and all my feels broke. Donnie’s a carer, he’s a worrier; we’ve seen this with the Pulverizer and with Metalhead. He felt responsible for them. And now he feels responsible for what happened to everyone, and to Leo. You can see it in his face, how throughout the episode at times he seems to under-react to certain things, and that at first confused me until I realised he’s just in such a state of shock that he doesn’t KNOW how to react.
Couple that with that terrible moment between him and April and… well you have a very sad Donnie in serious need of a comforting hug. The April interrupt wasn’t even funny to me! I felt downright rejected and a little angry at April, even if I still love her can understand she has more than one reason for having acted that way, which is how I imagine Donnie must feel about her right now.
All in all it was just a terrible episode for Donnie in every way possible and he barely had a single moment of comfort from anyone. With Splinter gone and Leo badly wounded, this is where Donnie steps up and becomes everybody’s pillar, taking the inniciative and moving the guys along, and I’m hoping we get to see more of that in the next episode. It would be a great chance for him to grow as a character.
But of course that is bound to take a toll on him… After hours of taking care of Leo, I imagine he’d be the last one to fall asleep. It’s not just that he worries about his brother not waking up again… it’s everything. Guilt, exhaustion, regret, rejection, loneliness.
In the quiet of night, Donnie takes a moment to try to pull himself together and be strong for the rest of them… and for himself.
This is amazing. Great work.